I am heart broken



PS.Everybody need sometime..

It happens ..its called non spontaneous reaction

What happens when what you don’t expect Happens...Good, bad ,ugly,painful,anything.  Like for example  you never decide to fall in love ..do you???  but still you fall for someone..You make promises ,You make love, you take commitments and at some point of time you fail. Again something  what you did not expect to happen ..But it happens ...Its destiny, fate..blah blah bullshit! 


(oKay.. I am not starting that karma-destiny-fate shit again)


What the heck is wrong with me I make everything sound so dull boring and brown in colour ...like you are watching the van hellsing or harry potter. Now must be wondering why the hell this post is even publicised. ...Well In short i just happen to meet one of my 13 yr old friend accidently. I met him last when super cyclone came in Orissa in 1999 . (did i just  sounds like some 75 year old granyy ..)
Its happy and weird at the same time...when you are dressed in your shabbiest outfit ever , and you have decided to experiment with worst smelling hair oil  today ,you cant find your deodorant in the heap of your dirty clothes..n you are out in your bathroom slippers ...never but just today!


On the top of it ....(check out this scene..TOTAL FILMY)  I was just finishing my fresh mint lime he bumps the question

D: “Are you  J***i”  ?   :)

Me:.(with a sick  face :( )  YESS

D:we are school friends ...remember :)

Me:NO... (Go-away  expression ..slipping lime in peace !)

D: I am D..your classmate n neighbour  ...same school Remember.. :)

Me : ..(finally recognised ) All happy  n exicted suddenly . :D 

DROPPED THE GLASS (kraaaaaak booooooooom slurrrrrrrrrrrrr zzzzzzzzzzzz)


Yes thats Wat I do when I do not expect things to happen and then they happen...........I am a non-spontaneous human being and I give non spontaneous reaction ! Sigh!

Fate

I have always thought a lot about destiny/ fate/ karma....
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Are we born with a particular life-course charted out and pre-planned for us?
That no matter what decisions we make...no matter what paths we choose... we finally end up doing the same things, meeting the same people and experiencing everything else we would have, had we taken another route??
Had I chosen another school, university, profession or company would I have had a different life or through some twist of fate... through some other means it would have been a mirror image of my current life???
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Or do we start out with a clean slate? Solely responsible for however we may turn out...
Living our life as a result of the decisions we make....
That there is a possibility of many alternative lives...some better... some worse...
Its quite a scary thought that there is no one else to blame but ourselves for whatever happens...
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Sometimes I wish I could live my life over and over again.... making different decisions everytime just to see how I would turn out in the end... Pure curiosity, of course!
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Or what if there was a machine created which showed us the future effects of all our decisions... we could have perfect lives... erase all mistakes before they happened....
But then that would mean that Life would lose its element of surprise....
Afterall, its no fun to read a book when you already know its end, is it?