DO O.V.E.R

I wish life is as simple as playing spider on my lappy.  When I'm left with no moves, I click "restart" and I'm back to square one...with no trace of how many moves or attempts done.

But life isn't like that.  There are no do overs.  You move, you pay or gain the price.  You lose time.  Hopefully you learn and do better the next time.

But more than time and lessons learned, moving costs a lot of decisions which entails emotions.  And that, one cannot get right every time.  No sir, almost always,  going up or down, forward or backward, leaves us feeling torn, anxious, dubious on whether we made the right choice.   And we are not the same person as before we have to choose.  There is no square one.  

If only we can stand still and just be.  But even this is a decision.