Whats happening !!!

I Dont call my friends,I dont pick up their calls (sorry GUYS)
I dont talk much nowadays (which is "so not me")
I dont say anything to my mom now...
I dont feel hungry (which is definitely not me)
I dont sleep..Thats understandable ;)
ppl ping- i gnore them (being visible) (okie thats rude i knw)
..........
life's become hectic, I must admit!
Anyway, today I am mischievously gleeful. 
There's a twinkle in my eye and a little butterfly in my stomach. 
Teehee! I am not telling you why :P :P :P HEhehehehehe...!
I'm torn between duty and individuality. Which one comes first!
What is it with me??? Why am I so affectionate? Or am I desperate?
 Ooooh... such a pain to try, understand and analyse your own psychology! And once you're able to, so hard to forgive others and yourself for being that psychological being!!!

Phases... I hate them!
Questions Questions!
How normal is it to feel that you're an option to people who are the priority for you?
How often is it normal to feel so?
How good is it for your psychological health?
How bad is it on your self esteem?
How do you get away from expectations?
How do you change priorities and make new ones?
How do you outdo yourself?
How, O How?!