Caution: This one goes out for the people who ever cared a shit about me."I am sorry for breaching the privacy of the people whom I have named if any  and my deepest apologies to people whom I know I have hurt knowingly.


More of  "Why do I always fall for men I can't have or I do not want to have ?


Age-14
Exhibit 1: Crush # ... Committed,Had a solid amour during school days ,he dated the most beautiful gal in my school Ms.M....y (She married someone else though) ,I never spoke to him and somehow he knows about me now.Nice Bengali chap , a doctor now, works in Delhi ...that's about it.... I know nothing about him.


Age-17
Exhibit 2: Friend# Nerd, bookworm,Excellent in studies, well versed and Successful compared to all friends,Zero interest in sex or love,liked a lotta gals but girlfriends he never had in life ....he really is a good friend.I know he still likes me but we cant be together because I like him but I don't want him. I miss him !


Age-21
Exhibit 3:College Senior # Really hot sexy dude who was in a long term relationship with someone else...mental/emotional connection....but just broke with his gal for me ....initially he never spoke to me ...probably because he feared I will mess up his "safe" situation.GREAT but the same dude finds me hotter and takes up a challenge to PATAO me and I kinda started liking him(he was hot n cute ---resembles Hrithik Roshan ..no kidding ) and then one fine day I leave him. Naaaah not my types ...

Age-22 

Exhibit 4 : ARK # My first boyfriend. I love him! Typical south Indian guy ..Telugu chap :) The best boyfriend a girl could ever have ,a Darling , a Sweetheart , He truly loved me.I was the first girl in his life .A big time orthodox and his family hated me cause I was a northi gal with red hair and ultra dash dressing sense  blah blah .........and We were too different to be together .we broke up badly.

Age-24

Exhibit 4: Colleague# I am dating this guy ..yes he is good .I guess he could the one with whom I would love to spend my life with.But I don't know about him if he feels the same way.Says "love never convinced him"...Hates commitments .

He speaks well,very eloquent ..but Cant talk to me continuously  without fail for more than 5 mins .Irony! Loves watching movies with me but hate showing me off to public!! Anyways I am not very positive about him but I like him ...Hope it works (Fingers crossed)

Do I seek out situations in which I am doomed to fail??? Or maybe I just like a challenge???? I hope something will work out eventually....