What kills me !

Yes I mean this .This makes me sad. He has been doing the usual "avoiding" me for the most part, but with a little chit chat here and there. He has had opportunities to invite me places, spend time with me...blah blah blah...but he hasn't.Now I am not gonna  take that bullshit under the caption "I am not that roaming types"

What ever now ..I am kinda pissed and  I am temporarily writing about my lack of love and care.I feel I am in love but nothing is going on... I haven't really got much more than a "hello" when he pops up into the office and then he disappears.I spoke to my friend today who apparently cares for me a lot and he explained to me that if  this guy had any interest in me he would make an effort to spend time with me. He has not... But I am okay ...I don wanna  listen to what my stupid friends say.Moreover,this thought crossed my mind which seems to make me  think that he is just focusing on moving and does not want to hurt me...whatever...either ways I will have to deal....

FUCK!!!!! He is so my type... ;(...He is funny, crass, confident, athletic...a bit of a bad boy, No manners but really a good guy...and he has broad shoulders and sexy sleepy eyes ,cute nose ,pink lips ..anda cool gooteeeee.... :) which makes him soooo hot WOW!(cLoUd NuMbEr 9)

Ps: soon after I posted this Emo shit , he sends me a sms 

I Love you :) you make me happy deep inside !!(Deep shit I know )

Now this is what kills me !


So this leaves me in an interesting position !! The guy who convinced me to fall in love cannot stay with me anymore..the guy I Crushed was a fag(I mean the guy I had crush on) and finally I love this jerk and he is a JERK!!!


 More of my love blogs coming up , guess I am geared up to write more  about it !